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This apathy thing has been horrible. Even things that I've always been able to count on to give me a mood lift, I'm just... *shrug*. Whatever. And I HATE that. It's pretty much the opposite of my true nature.

Man, neuro-chemistry is all so individual, isn't it? One size not only doesn't fit all, it doesn't even fit most, nor anything like.

Thanks for the Vitamin D suggestion. Actually, I saw your posts on that and have been (with doc's okay) taking first 2000 IU daily and eventually 4000 IU daily. I don't necessarily see that it's helped... but maybe it's kept things from being worse.

I'm sorry I've been unable to reply to your posts about your cats. My heart has been very much with you. *all the hugs*

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I just had mine retested last week, and after 3 months of megadosing, it was normal, but I don't respond to the OTC supplements, even combined with having the light box on for an hour a day. Doc says the non-responsiveness to conservative treatment a symptom of advanced/severe fibromyalgia...and after this last go at supplements + light box, we'll probably start a continuing semi-regular weekly megadose instead of the three months on, three months off thing. (D is toxic in high quantity, so getting the timing right here is the challenge.)

But, like I've said in my posts, this is the longest period in my life I've been free of depression. Even with all the shit I've faced this year, I keep looking around for the usual pit of despair and not caring what happens, and it is GONE. I feel like I'm having to relearn how to be a human being -- it's that big a difference.

Howler Kitty is having a relatively good day today, so I'm trying to simply be happy and grateful for that.

*hugs you much*

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